The salty night breeze blew her bangs in front of her eyes. She tucked the curls behind her ear, even though the wind blew them back within a few seconds. She was leaned over the banister of the ship, staring into the black depths of the ocean and listening to the sounds of the party on the deck just below her. It was the last night of the cruise, so close, she thought, to when she had to go back to her own life. Back to the same routine, school, home, sleep, school, home, sleep. But right now she was free. And she had allowed the rough edges of her personality to show the way she never would have at home. Yet, to her own surprise, she had made friends. They loved her wild nature at the time, the one that didn’t think twice about what she looked like, who she talked to, and what kind of impression she made. Her thoughts finally circled back to the present. And now… now there was a guy she didn’t know was standing in front of her. He said something but she couldn’t remember now.
She didn’t know what else to do so she gave an awkward laugh and said, “Hey.” She glanced at his eyes but quickly looked away when she realized he had been and was still staring at her. After a moment she followed it up with, “Sorry, I’m just lost in thought right now.” He gave her an easy smile and told her not to worry about it.
When he started to back away she straightened up and asked, “Where are you going?”
“Oh, I don’t want to ruin your last night by intruding,” he said apologetically.
He started to turn but not before she reached out to stop him, “No, no. Stay.” He grinned and leaned on the banister next to her.
“I was wondering were you went- you weren’t with everyone else,” he said without making eye contact.
“Yeah, I just wanted to get some air for a minute or two, it was getting a little crowded in there,” she said as she stuck her hands in her pockets.
He looked at her now when he said, “Oh, you wanted to catch a night as beautiful as you.” She felt the corners of her lips lift in a smile but she turned around before he could see. “So why are you really by yourself tonight? This night is beautiful and all, but its the last night of the cruise, you should be having fun.” He turned around as well and leaned back against the banister.
“What, you don’t think I’m having fun?” she asked in a teasing tone.
He turned and looked at her, “Well you seemed like you really enjoyed being around everyone else, and yet you’re out here, alone.”
She sighed. “Wanna crash the ice cream bar instead?”
“Mhm, no, I think I’d rather sit here with you and talk,” he looked her in the eyes. She shook her head and gave a small smile.
She looked up to say, “Do you ever feel like when someone meets you, they don’t actually meet you, they just meet who they think you could be?”
“I think I meet who the person wants me to meet. I can think all I want but in the end, you come up with who you want me to meet.” He looked out at the water before continuing, “To be honest though, I’d rather meet the real you, not who you just want to come off as.”
She thought for a moment. She looked him in the eyes and flattened her lips out into a grim line. And then she took a deep breath. “You really want to know me? You want to know all my flaws, all the things that make me imperfect? I don’t think you really do.”
He faced her and looked her in the eyes, “If thats the real you, then yes.”
Your Sweet Assassin